Now the bitching

And why are my posts out of order?!? I'm so confused. Jesus this day.

I'm on the phone with Jetblue to see if I can change my flight to BOS for August 1. There are so many details to this changing of schedule/taking time off from school thing. Yesterday I got good/bad news regarding my consultancy and bad news regarding my job at home. First regarding the consultancy: INSTRAW will be giving me a contract until October 31. Yay! Longer than expected. The complicated and potentially awesome part is that they might be extending my contract until December...which is awesome...but complicated if I can't find out about that until later in the year. What about my apartment? Planning is not possible. I guess I need to get used to this if I want to work with the UN or as a consultant with any other organizations. Drive me crazy.

The bad news regarding my job at home...I could tell the whole story and bitch and bitch and bitch, which is what I want to do, but I will just say this: I got screwed. I busted my butt for Tufts for a long time and that apparently does not result in professional or personal courtesy. I'm really really really pissed off about it. I know I tend to overreact in some situations, but this...it's just very upsetting. I am pissed off, hurt, upset in general. Ok.

Life in the apt is less than ideal right now. There is a constant influx of people, one of our roommates isn't cleaning up AT ALL, it's always loud (I've been kept awake three nights in a row now), and four of us just don't feel comfortable with what's going on. We've been trying to talk with the roommate in question, but he is avoiding us. It's a bad situation and it makes me feel yucky. We're adults! Let's sit down and talk!

My thesis is still up in the air, though I think I'm finally getting my ideas together and I think I like the direction I'm going better than the widow thing. It's too early to describe, but I will write when I can about it. I know I know...you're sitting on the edge of your seats. Calm yourselves! I will get back to you this weekend hopefully. Oh blogging. Navel gazing, self-importance inducing blogging.

I guess all of this is just to say that while I have been loving my life here, I feel very unsettled on various levels right now. And I haven't even gone into the interpersonal crap. Oy vey. My heart is palpitating like crazy. I just want things to settle themselves including what's going on in my head. Ha!

Enough bitching. I will leave you with a couple songs that have been making me tremendously happy tonight: "Ring my bell" by Anita Ward (brings me back to the end of college and ringing the bell after finishing my Div III), "Hold Tight London" by the Chemical Brothers (it kills me), and "Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover" by Sophie B. Hawkins (which, as Ryan and I discovered last summer, is the best song to drive with. i would kill to drive right now on that note.)

good night all.

p.s. please write me comments. is anyone out there listening to my ramblings?